by jersey_emt
Acela Express wrote:Thanks to everyone who is showing concern for the crew. We are all doing okay. We never get up and start our day wishing for something like this to happen whether it's a Boston, New Haven or New york crew or any train crew period. It's never a good thing to hear your train go into emergency at speed, especially @ 150 M.P.H. We were doing top speed when we took this person's life. Mansfield is @ M.P. 204 we didnt come to a complete stop until M.P. 202. Two miles away. This young person didn't get hit by accident. she waited until the time was right and darted out towards the track. Even though this person caused all types of problems for my crew, the people aboard the train and the commuters between Boston and Providence i still say god bless her soul. We all got to go home that night to our families while somebody else got bad news. Also i hope all the young people who were on the platform are able to deal with what they saw. There were alot of young high school and college kids that witness what happen. it's hard for some guys out here who are professionals to deal with it, so i know these young kids are horrified by that scene.'Acela Express', I'm so sorry that you and the rest of your crew had to deal with this horrible situation. I know it's not nearly the same, but as an EMT (Emergency Medical Technician), I have seen some terrible things, and have had to deal with losing many patients over the years who were under my care. Sometimes I have thoughts that haunt me. I second-guess what I did and run through in my mind the horrible 'what if' scenarios -- "What if I would have done 'B' instead of 'A'?" "What if I would have gotten there a minute earlier? 30 seconds earlier?" "Would those people still be alive if I would have done something different?" You and the others in your crew may be second-guessing everything you did that day. I know it is impossible to do so, but try not to be too hard on yourselves. Also, please get any help you need. Talking to a psychologist or psychiatrist is unfortunately so very stigmatized in our society, but talking to someone about what happened and what you are feeling may help you immensely. I know it did for me. Just letting everything out was a great help in my situation and it may also be in yours.
My thoughts are with you and anyone else affected by this unfortunate tragic incident.
A lot of people that posted above have been very blunt saying things like, "How stupid can you be for crossing the tracks, especially in high-speed territory?" Hearing story after story about people trespassing and being killed on the tracks makes everyone here think those thoughts -- I know I have, too. But please be respectful and remember that somebody is now gone, and that their family and friends have lost someone close to them.
Again, 'Acela Express', you and your crewmembers are in my thoughts. I hope that you find the strength you need to help you get through this.
Daily commuter on New Jersey Transit's North Jersey Coast Line: Avenel -> NYP